Running from the Waves

There was a time when I bottled up and stored away an entire season of memories from my childhood. I locked it up and called the container my “Tupperware of Blackness!” Later on, as an adult, I was letting my mom practice some energy work with me, and we decided to take a tiny peek into this mental container. The result surprised me! Rather than experiencing something negative, I saw an image of my sister and I being silly and having fun! I realized that at some point, I shut out the good right along with the bad…it felt as if the bad had robbed me of some of the good, so that I could/would feel stuck. Stuck feeling angry and hurt, as if I couldn’t allow myself to enjoy good memories because that time was supposed to be so bad in my mind. It’s hard to describe, but ultimately my take-away was this…I was robbing myself of wonderful memories and feelings of love by bottling up my pain and holding on to it as a protective barrier. Like, if I had happy memories, I wasn’t allowed to be angry any more. Kind of like when a child is upset, and the parent tries to give them all the reasons why they shouldn’t be upset, but rather than accepting that positivity, they want to stay upset and reject it because they need to feel their feelings! Makes sense…since I was a child when I created that barrier!

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